This summer ive mostly been staying at home or going with my mom to work. its kinda been boring since my brother isnt here (he went to the phillipines all summer cause my grandma is lonely cause my grandpa is stuck here). in July my great aunt (i think) took me to the east coast for the first time. her son and husband took me to 6 or 7 states is was fun except i spent most of the time with her son. hes fun but he kinda annoys me and the plan they went with involved being in 1 state all day then driving to the next state out of order so it was kinda exausting. but still interesting. during my time at home ive been brainstorming ideas for stories and dooding pictures until i remembered i still have to apply to my college classes. so now im trying to get all the classes i need a few weeks before school. which i reccomend NOT doing. since im the oldest i dont really have anyone to help me with this college process. my mom only briefly went to college but didnt finish and my dad got up to an associates but lives somewhere else so he cant really help me either. my mom kinda isolates herself and us from family cause she says she dosent need help which also annoys me cause i barely see them which kinda is good cause even though alot of my cousins are younger than me they are really really bossy especially with me since im just a push over. T-T . i really wish i did a little better in school so i could have been accepted at CSU Channel Islands and not have to go to the next town for Moorpark cause Channel Islands is just a few streets from me and further down the road but still close to where i live!! I also live close to the Camarillo Outlet so i walk around there sometimes. its kinda nice to walk around the mall by yourself  and eat by youself cause i usually go everywhere with my mom and brother. So for 2 monthes ive been lazy and now for one month im rushing through everything. i really hate procrastinating but i do it anyway i really need to get organized.